Randomness :P
Mental Abyss
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"It's like a whirlwind inside of my head!", would perfectly sum up it for me I guess. It's too much of wasteful thinking, day dreaming without the actual execution. Let alone execution there is no planning at all, no road map, no direction. I know this lack of direction seems to be a recurrent thought in all of my previous postings, and I do admit a grave lack of novelty when it comes to inventive thinking.
There are random things whizzing all the time. All this while it's never still, running, huffing panting, like on an endless treadmill, my mind needs to take rest or else it will pass out but it just can't. self proclaimed lack of self control and total self-chosen obliviousness to the demands of the fickle mind maybe the reason why it just doesn’t seem to be working the way it's meant to be. There is way many random processing going on which do not amount to anything, They do not even qualify to be thoughts, let alone intelligent or creative ones. They are mere whiffs of residual flavors of the way-bygone thoughts and they do not seem to settle down.... round and round, round and round they trace the mental circles I’ve been making....
Nothing seems to be of interest… just an elusive dream, an elusive hope that makes u run, remains to keep you going. Hope of that one day when everything will be fine, when as promised "Everything WILL turn out fine, in the END!" LOL Hoping of a better tomorrow robs us of our key moments today, which actually shape our tomorrow. Mindless listing of the present scenario coupled with a fickle minded, ignorant dream of a better, magical tomorrow when everything mystically falls into place, seems the worst of the possible delusions, one could cast upon oneself. And firmly believing in such an incandescent, not even latent, close to ethereal, never practical dreams or hopes of a better, "distant" day seems to be the easiest way out for escapists like me.
Ya i know! One heck of an analysis, haan? That's what I do mostly. Think random stuff which do not add up to anything, which leaves me agape with further confusion staring blindly at some distant random dream walking continuously towards something!!!
I so wish that Einstein’s quote of God not playing dice wouldn't have been proved wrong........
hmm....
There u have it! Yet another wish!! Dang it!!! wishful thinking is like a disease LOL
"It's like a whirlwind inside of my head!", would perfectly sum up it for me I guess. It's too much of wasteful thinking, day dreaming without the actual execution. Let alone execution there is no planning at all, no road map, no direction. I know this lack of direction seems to be a recurrent thought in all of my previous postings, and I do admit a grave lack of novelty when it comes to inventive thinking.
There are random things whizzing all the time. All this while it's never still, running, huffing panting, like on an endless treadmill, my mind needs to take rest or else it will pass out but it just can't. self proclaimed lack of self control and total self-chosen obliviousness to the demands of the fickle mind maybe the reason why it just doesn’t seem to be working the way it's meant to be. There is way many random processing going on which do not amount to anything, They do not even qualify to be thoughts, let alone intelligent or creative ones. They are mere whiffs of residual flavors of the way-bygone thoughts and they do not seem to settle down.... round and round, round and round they trace the mental circles I’ve been making....
Nothing seems to be of interest… just an elusive dream, an elusive hope that makes u run, remains to keep you going. Hope of that one day when everything will be fine, when as promised "Everything WILL turn out fine, in the END!" LOL Hoping of a better tomorrow robs us of our key moments today, which actually shape our tomorrow. Mindless listing of the present scenario coupled with a fickle minded, ignorant dream of a better, magical tomorrow when everything mystically falls into place, seems the worst of the possible delusions, one could cast upon oneself. And firmly believing in such an incandescent, not even latent, close to ethereal, never practical dreams or hopes of a better, "distant" day seems to be the easiest way out for escapists like me.
Ya i know! One heck of an analysis, haan? That's what I do mostly. Think random stuff which do not add up to anything, which leaves me agape with further confusion staring blindly at some distant random dream walking continuously towards something!!!
I so wish that Einstein’s quote of God not playing dice wouldn't have been proved wrong........
hmm....
There u have it! Yet another wish!! Dang it!!! wishful thinking is like a disease LOL
Comments
just stop thinking so goddamn much :(
seriously!
i am a happier person since d day i locked my brain and threw the keys
n I am not unhappy :P
but u r ryt in a way n thts wot i have written na...that i need to stop thinking a lot :P
hmm...
m trying :P