Crux of Life.


Repercussions of a Troubled Mind

Chapter 1

Crux of Life. Oct 5,2006


The crux of life is that, “Practice is the road that takes one to the destination of their life”.
Now, this is a well established truth, but one does wonder at times

that what then the does it mean by practice. What could be defined as

practice, what is the nature of practice?
Why, some of us in spite of giving their best efforts, and even after

claiming a large amount of practice do not succeed? Why do some of us

who work seamlessly to acquire that elusive art of perfection feel that

they haven’t reached their destination? Here what is called for is a

definition of success. How do you define success? How do we judge

whether an outcome of a particular action or deed was successful or

unsuccessful?
Really, many questions are bound to occur, as there might not seem to

be a definite and satisfactory answer. All of us are on a quest, on a

journey. The quest seems unending, the journey and its implications

seems unfathomable. Given the circumstances, there are bound to be

confusions, there are bound to be plateaus in a person’s life, when he

begins to question the very meaning and validity of the quest itself.

What is he to do then? As all the natural inclinations in a persons

mind push him towards giving up the quest. When all the logical

conclusions point towards only one outcome, Decadence!
Then what is one to do? When a person grows too weak to go on, when

after facing many long treacherous hours, exacting days and countless

arduous years, he grows a little tired of trying too hard and his will

begins to fail him, and every part of his body coaxes him to let it all

go, then what sort of a reward would motivate him to go farther, after

so many fruitless years of struggle and aborted zeal??
The questions never cease, as the purpose of the mind is to Question!!
T

he only thing that the mind does best is to question…..question if this

person is tricking us, question if this thing is right, question if it

hurts to be brandished…and so on.
But then the point of the matter or rather the crux of the matter is

who answers??!! Questions will persist and remain adamant and cause

suffering and agitation. Could then the solution be to simply quit

questioning, to may be train the mind in such a fashion that we control

its immediate and unreasonable impulse to question? Perhaps it may be.

Perhaps that is what the saints call “The Silence of the mind”. So

then, does not thinking provide the answer? I wouldn’t necessarily

agree. Then the whole meaning of the life would then be lost. What good

is a mind that does not think?? What purpose does it serve if it does

not think and analyze? How could we then synthesize new ideas? If the

brain quits thinking, then the entire idea of perfection seems

irrelevant, because after all it still is a thought, isn’t it??

Everything we believe, every dream we have, every bit of memory that we

have, every shard of knowledge that we have, isn’t it after all a

thought? Even the idea of obliterating the use of mind, is still an

idea, a thought is it not?
More questions……….Mind doesn’t give up easily, it will question even

the questions contesting its very existing and purpose!!!! Ironic is it

not, that the mind seems to defend itself using ways, that are supposed

to be the basis of all the allegations against it
“Question the question” then becomes the stratagem of the mind.


But if you come to think of it, isn’t it the mind itself that is

questioning the mind!!! Who is asking the questions to the mind? Who

are making these allegations against the mind?? Is it not the mind

itself?? More questions!!! There seems to be no way out of these

questions and their concomitant, confusion……..no way…….

The mind plays all the roles, it writes the story, it directs the

scene, it enjoys the scene, the mind edits it, and the mind itself

remains audience to the magnum opera it itself creates and applauds the

amazing intricacies and the depth of its script and marvels at its own

creativity…………….

So at the crux of it all is creativity???!!! Oh god no!!! no more

questions please. The text has transgressed entirely the intentions of

the topic.

Now it seems the crux of life is just CONFUSION and more

confusion!!!With nothing clear as usual, I would like to end this topic

concluding nothing but this, “Confusion prevails, when everything

fails!!! Or perhaps, when YOU fail at everything!!!”

The games mind play can sometimes be extremely cruel…..in the ways in

which they tend to usher ones obliviously slumbering souls to face the

reality of life………..

I don’t know what i just said…..but is sounds intellectual doesn’t

it??!!

Intellectual rubbish……..A long list of incoherent words, stringed

together by the faintest of meanings ever.





Prashaant.

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